Greetings Rock Church Family!
If you haven't heard already, this is my (Laura Lowery) last week as the Administrator of The Rock Church. One of my favorite parts of serving our church family in this capacity has been writing the weekly blog post and I would be a big, fat liar if I said I wasn't going to miss it. That being the case, I hope that you will indulge my divergence from the usual sermon recap and read on and let me share my mind with you.
I think this year has been the most difficult of my life so far, and from the conversations that I've shared with many of you, I know I'm not the only one. Albert Einstein said that, "Adversity introduces a man to himself" and I agree, but this year has taught me that adversity, while it did not introduce me to God, has helped me learn more about Him, and I'm starting to think that He's not the God I want Him to be.
That He is not who I want Him to be, is probably very, very good. I don't want to be uncomfortable or sad or afraid. I don't want my faith tested, I don't want to be uncertain about my future and I don't want to suffer. I don't want my circumstances to force me to grow and learn and mature. I don't want to experience pain so that I can comfort others in the same way that God has comforted me (2 Corinthians 1:3-7.) I don't want to learn to experience trials with joy so that I can understand more about the unchanging nature of God (James 1:2-18.) I don't want to immerse myself in humility and trust God to lift me up (James 4:1-10.) I think God knows all this, and I think that the things that I want and don't want are not His main consideration.
I think He wants me to trust Him to do what He views as good (as opposed to what I view as good) and I think He wants me to to finally let His love be the one thing that makes me feel worthwhile and complete (Romans 8:26-39.) I think ultimately, that is what He wants for all of us and that He is much more concerned with giving us the chance to internalize those beliefs, than He is with being the God that we want Him to be.
Thanks for letting me share my thoughts with you these last few years. Thanks for doing life with me and letting me work for our church without pretending to be a perfect person. Thanks for being my family.
Much love (but definitely no hugs... I don't like hugging!),
Laura : )